Saturday, June 21, 2008

Mamaws Teachings

Mamaw was very ill, she was dying from lung cancer. August was here and I new it was a matter of time for her to go . Praying every night before bed that she wouldnt go on my birthday, Aug. 22 . Fortunately for me she went home on the 29 , just 7 days later . She said to me once that I was her " child with an old soul". Always felt out of sorts too ,like I should have been from an earlier time! ? The first thing I can say I learned from her was to love unconditionally ( there's a lot of pain that comes with that). And it doesnt always mean you have to like either ! Patience ......to listen and to give . You may have a different opinion or you may not like what is being said but there is always something to learn if you listen! To give of myself to others, because its free . And when you give of yourself( from the heart !) it comes back . Treat all as if they were JESUS !! and that can be quite difficult at times !!! , I make myself stand back and say " I know its really not but what if ? ". Like , have you ever looked into , and I mean really looked into the eyes of a child ? If you dont see JESUS in there then you havent really looked !!! I cherish looking into childrens eyes !! Not just my children or grand children , but them all . I encourage you to look next time your out in the grocery . Just give a little smile and see what you get in return . Its like magic ! Now for the last , forgiveness . We all need to forgive daily . Try not and let it exceed the day . It becomes harder to find the forgiveness sometimes as days pass . Try not to say that you cant or that its unforgivable . But remember above all that JESUS does ! and to me to say that I cant forgive is to say that Im better than him . Well , and that certainly wont happen ! My Mamaw was so loving and giving , feminine and yet very strong and indepedant too ! That was a bit of a rarety for her time . For I've heard stories (as she was a single parent of three ), that when she bought a new home and had no grass in the yard that she used an old hand tiller to prepare her yard for seed. And being the entreprenuer that she was , she would hand till other neighbors yards for extra money. She would make mr & mrs santa dolls , ceramic x-mas trees , hanging perched owls , and many many others ! She was also the owner of a Tavern in louis. ky. Crippling arthritis she had in her hands , her fingers were all bent towards her pinky fingers . But never did it hold her back from getting done what needed to be done ! RC cola is what she drank and Belair cigarrettes is what she smoked . She had a thing about always trying to make everyone feel special . She was good at that too : ) At thanksgiving she would ask everyone, what is your favorite pie ? then she would see to it that the pie was there for them . It was a lot of fun for me to be with her as she cooked . I had an over head view as the kitchen she used to do all of her BIG cooking was in the basement. All I had to do was sit on the steps and I was on one side of the stove and counter and she was on the other . It was great ! I got to see and taste it all . Is that too much ? does it need more salt? And of course I got to lick all the spoons ! YUM ! And for her I was always in sight but never in the way . Sure wish I could talk to her , I have alot of questions . Proud I hope she is of me !

2 comments:

Angela M. Bray said...

I didn't know you had a blog! I googled Mamaw's name and your blog popped up. I envy you your memories of mamaw. I remember every inch of that house, but I have but one or two actual memories of her. Mom swears I couldn't possibly remember anything because I was only three when she died, but I swear to you I do. But you had her through your formative years. For someone I can barely remember, I sure do miss her. A couple of days ago Mom gave me a copy of a pic of mamaw holding me in my footie pj's. I've put it on my computer. Net has two years on me. Does she remember her any better? Love ya, Cous.

nana said...

I never knew anyone would find this . Just something I felt a need to do . Ive never told anyone about it, so you finding it has taken me by surprise. Glad you can remember what you do . My heart aches for her , I long to hear her talk to me, hold me . I feel somehow lost without her. I must admit tho that I do have conversations with her from time to time. Cant wait to get to heaven to be with her and a few others as well. As far as Net, Im not really sure what all exactly she remembers. We'll have to ask. Now that Im not a secret any longer . Guess Ill share my ramblings to all.