Monday, October 27, 2008

My Knight in shining armer !!

Wow , this one hit me like a ton of bricks !!. While dating a man who was a very intelligent, kind , loving, and a good role model for my son. He also was an important role player in the church we attended. He was many things for me and to me . My only problem was his family and friends thought I was all wrong . Mostly because I had been married before and had a child. Well, as much as I understood , I never really thought they were giving me a fair shot. Although I must be clear , they were never mean to me . We dated somewhere around two years and he was close to being a perfect choice for me and my son. Then one day he came by to talk to me, and explained that his family and friends were putting a little pressure on him to date other people. He suggested that we do just that with the exception that on sundays he would still come by and visit with my son for a few hours!! That was fine with me I explained. For I HAD already been married before and I new a little more of what I wanted and what to expect than him. This was to only be for thirty days . Loved and adored him I did, but I was not madly in love with him. A future with a marriage I did see but NOT anytime soon . That was ok for me , I didnt want to rush into anything .Especially not after everything I'd been through. Then two weeks before halloween , a few kids in the neighborhood came down the street pulling pranks and destroying mailboxes knocked mine over . They then cut thru a yard onto the next steet over. A friend of mine lived at the end of the street in the direction they were running . So I called her to ask if she would look out her window and tell me who these teenage boys were. We live in a small town so it may be easy to recognize them . She said they had halloween masks on . My next step was 911 and Asked the dispatcher if he could have the onshift officer meet me at the firehouse . Met with the officer and explained what happened. He asked if I would want to ride with him for a while and see if we could locate these young men together . Sure , I said . So I locked up my mothers car and hopped into his. It was nothing for me to be seen at the firehouse at any time due to my mother was the first woman firefighter in our town . We held a lot of fundraisers there and I was also the president of the womans auxilliary. This particular officer I had met before briefly ,but mostly due to the police dept. and fire dept. were side by side . Again as well I must say we live in a small town. Well I rode with this officer from approximately eight pm. til approx. 6 am . the next morning . He talked the biggest part of the night and I really enjoyed listening to him . As our night ended he asked if I would like to ride again with him the next night ? YES , I said about as quickly as he was to ask me to ride. Again he talked for most of the night and again I listened. However our evening ended a little different this time. He kissed me . Blown away by his forwardness toward me I was !. On the third night I think I did a little more of the talking . My boyfriend and I were only on our first week of temporary separation when I met this man I must remind you . Three and a half weeks into this "new" relationship I'd stumbled into "he proposed" !!! I know , who would ever thought ??? That any of this would come to be !Oh , things were a movin fast !! The fact is I actually said yes , and again just about as fast as he had asked me! I never hesitated. My mother was in california at the time and all I could think of was how she always said , " never date a police officer". Did'nt understand why at the time but she later explained that her mother had told her the same things and the best we could get out of all that was she must have had a bad experience. So , never the less I tell everyone the story only to tell them that I kept that part short, for my mother never said I couldnt marry one !! We decided not to tell my mother right away or anyone else really. Mom came home from california sometime around the end of the thirty day period. I'll be darned if he didnt blurt it out to her anyway!!Well , she knew I was in a thirty day trial separation but, what she didnt know was that since the proposal other than herself , no one else knew. The boyfriend was devastated to hear my mother blurt out all of the changes that had occured since she left and returned. Including me preparing to get married !! We hadnt even sat and talked yet. Well, we did and he explained that he had talked to his mother just a couple of nights before and told her she must accept me because it was me he was choosing to be with. She promised she would . He had many questions . How and where did I meet this person ? How long had I known him?Was he accepting to my son? They were all rightful asked questions . Only I didnt know why all this was happening my own self. Trying to give some kind of comfort was hard because of this too. Explained the best I could ... I wasnt looking for someone, he fell into my lap, I love you and all that we have shared . Your family has been against me from the get go and I truly feel that letting you go now is truly the best thing. For somewhere down the road when things get a little hard , and all things do , that you family will be there to throw all of me in your face . So, I 'd rather hurt you now than to someday marry you and hurt you a lifetime ! I t still was a very hurtful evening for the both of us . Of all the things going on around us I truly believe that GOD was reveiling things to me . My son as I explained was always a part of my dating , but this time it was different for him too.! He began calling this new man in my life "daddy". Now , no one suggested this. He began this before the proposal even. We thought at first he may have been saying" Danny ", but nope it was daddy . I told my son no but Danny quickly stopped me and said , if that is what he is comfortable with then leave him alone! so we did. Oh how he was and is my knight in shining armor. ( He DROVE up in his WHITE shiny police CAR wearing his UNIFORM of ARMOR)